= So this is a perfect display of my boy's affection for me...lol! =

       = They are so crazy, fantastic, perfection and brilliance all in one =

  We are right outside The Sweet Shoppe at Gardner Village and they just got done giving that candy store a run for their money as always.  Before that I couldn't pry them out of the bookstore and of course before that we enjoyed a delicious lunch with grandma, aunt Kiki and uncle Lindonia!

  Everyone always comments on how precious these littles of mine are...and bam people you are correct!  They are the sweetest 3 blue eyed boys around and no mom could have gotten luckier.

  Anyone can say they have the best, cutest, smartest and most perfect children around but they don't have my boys.  They are always concerned with how their mommy is and if I am happy.  I am so lucky to be a mother and to feel such LOVE for my littles.  

Practice makes HUMAN!

  With Mothers Day coming up tomorrow I can't but for some reason feel emotional, stressed and frankly inadequate.  I look around me and see all of these MOMS that seem to have their shit together (pardon my honesty).  Why do I not feel like one of them?  I have never been one to follow the pack but I am longing to be a member of the imaginary amazing mom pack right now.
  I am usually someone who is the first to help others, cheer someone up, give the first hug, wipe away the tears and do it HAPPILY :)  Why can't I always feel like that?
  Well for one thing I am not a ROBOT!  I know!  News to me too!  I have just finally found out that I am of all things, HUMAN!  I have been a little sensitive lately with random things...such as my son writing me a cute note or maybe just a cute one of my babies saying they love me over and over!
  I am not here to say that usually I am perfect, because NEWSFLASH...nobody is and NEVER will be.  I also don't want to be perfect...that would be so annoying!  I want to be ME!  I want to be normal and I think I am as normal as it gets.  With a pretty awesome family of laughter, smiles and occasional farting from one of my 4 boys...oh and sometimes our dog Brownie (another topic for another day...Brownies occasional stench)!
  I get happy when I am supposed to, sad randomly like the rest of you and sometimes even angry.  If anything I am just overwhelmed with emotions because I am HUMAN and its okay to not always get it right.  But, when you do get it right...it feels pretty good!
  I am happy, sad, excited, angry (at times), exhausted, optimistic and opinionated.  I am also so grateful to be here on this incredible journey that god has given me.  And just like so many of you...I am not always going to get it right the first time, but I can get there.  That my friend is why they came up with the phrase "PRACTICE MAKES HUMAN!" (not PERFECT anymore folks)
  
  Motherhood is such a strange dichotomy.  It is life-giving and exhausting.  It constantly exercises my faith, tests my patience, and stretches my heart.  But, as a result, my faith and patience are stronger.  My heart is bigger.  And although sometimes I still reach the end of my rope, my rope is getting longer.  

Perfection...

  I feel as people get older perfection no longer is something to strive for but is a MUST!  NEWS FLASH!!! Perfection is deceitful.  If you feel the need to so called "FEED" then feed off being good to you and then to others not bringing them down! In the long run it will only bring you true happiness to stay true to you!
  There is no reason to subject yourself to to others that need to be saved by hurting others.  Just remember that you are only your best self when you are honest and true to yourself!  How can you help others if you aren't able to help or be YOUrself?  You know who you are...and that is who you should always be.